It's really hard sometimes to not take things personally. Someone doesn't quite live up to your expectations, you think someone will change, become more mature, do what they say they're going to do or just generally be a good person. I have found myself struggling with this recently and just try to tell myself it's all going to work out and that while I don't have to completely stop doing favors, putting myself last or working so hard that I begin living for the moments I have off the clock - it is ok for me to say no. It's ok to not act like a doormat. It's ok that I'm not going to be that person who makes you feel like your behavior is acceptable and that of a mature person. Because it isn't.
What I am focusing on today is that I am blessed to be able to pay my bills. I am so much stronger and fitter than I have been in a long time. I graduate next year. I can almost always see the sun straining through the fog. Fall is coming. A change in season. A continued changed perspective on all those things that I can control. I will travel again before the year is over. Even if it's Chicago, Grand Rapids, St Louis or Louisville. I hope you can all see the sun today through the rain and cold!
the rain and cold was blissful to me....probably because I didn't HAVE to get out in it. It is a wise woman who can put herself first the majority of the time without hurting those around her. You are learning. You have no control over anyone but you. Be graceful and allow others to be who they are. You don't have to be around them to let them be who they are. Love you poo! Llama!
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