Friday, November 19, 2010

A little bit of Everything.

Finally Friday. Another 3+ hours of work and a much dreaded/needed visit to the gym. It's literally been weeks - just couldn't muster the energy. BUT THEN - Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Pt 1!! Pretty excited even though I can't for the life of me remember what the last book was all about...hope to catch on soon enough. Quiet night at the store, blessing after an annoying day at the spa. She just can't ever let up. Always picking at something. It must mean I am always learning something - that's the hope anyway. It's cold again. Brr...
Looking forward to Saturday evening. I think I'd like to go out to dinner and get a nice bottle of wine. That sounds pleasant and relaxing (even though I should solely be devoting my time and energy to my will get always does). Would it be wrong to avoid the gym until after the holidays and I revert back to only 1 time- and energy-consuming job? No, I must go. 30 minutes will not take long, 30 minutes in fact. More later.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

My Corner.

I'm in my little corner. It's an awkward position - it's on my kitchen counter, leaning on the cabinets, feet propped against the fridge. But right now, it's my corner. I'm not working in my corner. I'm not being a sister/daughter/girlfriend in my corner. I'm not studying in my corner. I'm not budgeting in my corner. I am being in my corner. The world is around me but I am separate from it.

I'm not truly separate. I can still hear the washer washing my clothes that I will need to put in the dryer in 10-20. I can hear Jamie coming through the door. My back hurts from working all morning. I have the residue of emotion from the long, intense conversation I had tonight. I have to deal. But I really just want to stay in this corner.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Staycation v. Vacation

Red and white lights on the lightposts outside. It must be the holidays. 3 jobs. Dear oh dear. Tomorrow will be my 17th day in a row between the three and the next one scheduled off happens to be Thanksgiving - another 15 days away making is a solid 32 in a row. I'm doing ok though, no hallucinations or fits of narcolepsy yet. No time to exercise or cook for fun though. I think I should go somewhere in January - before school starts or the weekend of the first week of class if that's possible...where though? I wish somewhere warm wasn't hundreds of dollars and hours away. Maybe a staycation is what I need. Hole up post-holidays, eat leftovers, sleep and write for a few days. I'll need to buy a robe... Or I can just use some of all of this money I'm making working myself to death to just hop a plane solo and hide out on some beach somewhere for 2 days, eat tropical fruit, sleep and write. That's a nice thought. I'll still need a robe...